Hurt

that does seem to be going around with a lot of girls over here too.
its like a disease that you cant find a cure for and it keeps occuring
so we become afraid of it and swear it off only to find it on us stronger than before and tearing apart our very existance as it is torn from us again and again you swear it off but it just keeps coming back till it drives you insane pushing you over the edge into oblivion casting your soul into a see or torment at every turn drawing out the inner most part of you and crushing it with such force that the hurt is so deep that you dont even feel it you just know of it and what it means so you just let it flow over you and are washed away in the sea of pain till you can block it back but once you do that then you just build it up and it will break free and it will pour over you drowning you under it as the world changes and it happens again putting even more in there and just when you think you are over it it comes back to do even more damage to your mental attitude twards the whole thing making it so much bigger because the next one will have so much more to do and when he does get there it will be so much harder when he leaves that it just wont do any good